'I' am a middle person. 'I' is the first person. 'I' is personal. An intermediary exchanges two contrasting principles and exists in two contrasting aspects. Because I have lived the same amount of time in China and Australia, I like to question the means of "being" that the 5,000 year Chinese heritage I have brought with me constantly contradicts my twenty-first century Australian life. Regardless, I live in mutual dependence on my Chinese tradition and modern Western civilizations. I will not exist without either cultural element. The contrast between my background and my current condition clarifies my investigation of my question. I often feel trapped, trapped. If I make a move, I feel two forces pulling me in opposite directions. Twenty years ago, when I settled in Sydney, if anyone asked me where I was from, "I'm from Beijing, China". I replied immediately, without batting an eye. Twenty years later, same question: 'where are you from?' It is inevitable to pause, then, to answer: "from home, St Ives". Or to clarify the question before answering: 'do you mean where I was originally from?' If I intend to stay where I am, which, unmistakably, I feel, I am collapsing and dissolving. Same question asked in recent years: 'where are you from?' I can't answer, "I'm from Beijing, China," because that's no longer the truth. Although, if I visit China, Chinese people ask me if I'm Australian, my short answer would be: "still Chinese". I have to deny that I am 100% Australian because I don't feel I fit into that category even though I am Australian by law. The way I was mixed didn't turn me into either Australian or Chinese. I'm simply somewhere in between. How do I avoid the conflicts and contradictions of being a Chinese…half of paper…with a palm-sized narrative image. No human being is indifferent to the loss of belonging, inside or outside, or in between. “Make the most of yourself, because that's all there is to you.” Emerson said, “What lies behind you and what lies before you pales in comparison to what lies within you.” Humanity investigates all possibilities to solve the biggest problem, namely life and death. The question remains whether it is the East or the West that holds the key to the unknown. Western scientists can discover the substance to expand life, Eastern life philosophy can develop metaphysics and consciousness to expand life. Meeting the west and the east, the combined contrasting functions of yin-yang according to the law of nature will evoke globalization. On this note, the notion of my article, although 'I' is first person, 'I' is not personal. Every spectator is framed in this “I”.