Even though her marriage was temporary, she didn't hate him for this or that. His relationship was ultimately and absolutely beyond words, the hatred of difference was so pure and precious. It was as if it were a ray of essential hatred, a ray of light that not only destroyed her because of his death, but completely denied her, revoked her entire world. Maybe, just maybe, she thought to herself that Gerald really did love her, but in a different way than how she perceives what love is. You have to learn to love and go through a fair amount of suffering to get there and, in any case, everyone present at the funeral would have been the product of having gone through that situation.